have you ever encountered a flirtatious guy that disgust you in any way? well I just did. and I need to bear with him for few more weeks since he is my teammate for a particular assignment. great. and what's the worst that could happen? he is my coursemate as well. oh yayyy I need to pull a disgust face for few more years. but nah that won't happen since I'll try my best to avoid him :)

I have tried to understand that he's just joking but hitting on a girl for every minute? that's seriously a major turn off. you can just join a conversation without a necessity to compliment a girl with ughh freakin disgusting pick up line. fuck. I want to swear every time I remembered that.

I made a group chat for our group to stay informed of our assignment. everyone asked anything in there even sharing ideas were there. but this guy just have the nerve to constantly personal message me about unnecessary stuff. even asking what time is our discussion when I have clearly said it in our group. ugh. and even forced me to go to library (which of course I won't go) to accompany him finding a book. ihhh sudah la bida. I know I'm bida and gumuk as well but I don't go flirting with guy like he did. it's uncomfortable af. there's one time that he talked about my teammates' profile picture in whatsapp and he said that I changed my picture like every week. now that's creepy af since I think he always viewed my picture. ewwww. so I deleted him from my contact and changed my privacy setting.

first things first, you don't make people uncomfortable to work with you like that. I'm being so nice to didn't blocked you and kicked you out of the group. so please change your attitude or don't even try to work with me because I can't stand this kind of creepy guy.

I'm not used to this kind of situation since I am ugly so no one flirts with me. when he just excessively compliment me like that I feel uncomfortable af and I want to cry every time I need to face this guy. I'm scared and I don't even know why. I know I'm over-reacting but I hope someone can understand me that this thing is not okay.

this is a huge secret that I am going to tell you.
no I am not pregnant. don't worry.

actually this is going to be something that is related to my studies which I have never tell anyone before but it just crossed my mind just now. so I think why don't I just share it here. and here it goes!

is this your first choice? do you like your course? how are you going to survive this when you don't even have any idea of it? aren't you going to change your course?

I have heard this a lot like a gazillion times. first of all the course I am currently in isn't my first choice and it is far related from what I want. when we were told to fill an online form to apply for the bachelor's degree program, I had a hard time because I was still unsure of what path am I going to take. So after days or weeks of thinking and researching, I came to a decision to choose Geology. During 3 months of holiday after I completed my foundation, I was so sure that I am going to get that course so I started to research about the job prospect and all even until the day the result was out I was still sure that I will get Geology. But come to my surprise that the Almighty God has decided something different for me. was it better? idk.

when I got my acceptance letter I was like wtf is Kejuruteraan Rangkaian. I have absolutely no idea of this course. and since it is under Faculty of Computing and Informatics, I thought I will be placed at UMSKAL. but thank God it's still under UMS main branch. idk why am I so concerned about this when my family is living at Labuan lol

I was afraid to tell my parents that I didn't get what I want. But when my Mom reached home after work, she immediately asked me what I got. when I said I got Network Engineering, she was so HAPPY. and my father too. She said it's a good course and there's a wide range of job prospect in this course since our country is developing and everything need a network system management in their company. so I was convinced that I will give it a try.

two months later, here I am. loving my course so much. and I want to thank whoever involved in placing me in this course. I think computing just suit me so well since I hate working outside and I spent most of my time with my computer in my room. my friends who know me will agree with this. and I regret for not realizing my true potential before. I shouldn't be wavered by people who told me to be a medical doctor or chemical engineer or whatever they think will get me richer. nah. do what you love-the thing that you have a great passion in it and discover your true potential. what is the point of struggling in something you are forced to- a fancy course that you think will make people awed but you can't even enjoy it.

my lab demonstrator said this when I was in the third semester of my foundation year in UMS.

biasanya yang datang pertama ni memang rezeki kita.

it was already written. It is your choice whether you want to follow it OR draw another pace. good luck to me and to you too who's reading this :)